Lots of things other people find fun, or anywhat seem to find fun, make me want to run away screaming.
“Having fun” – chitchatting, this and that, having a long meal, savoring everyday things – most of the time I am bored out of my tree, even when the food tastes great, when the flavor is just right.
As for talking about meals one has had – I can remember taking part in lots of conversations about that – and every now and then it’s okay. But most of the time I would rather walk away.
Maybe I am going on about the boringness of everyday life because I have been spending a lot of time with my partner’s mother, who is kind and caring and loving – but talks an enormous amount and also focusses a lot on food. But that isn’t the only reason.
All my life – all my adult life anyway – I have spent a lot of time trying to get away from the boringness of the way everyday life is usually lived.
I endure that life when I have to.
I do not enjoy it.
What do I enjoy?
I am sitting under trees in a quiet spot. no one is talking. no one else is around. I am not bored.
I could sit here for ages and not be bored. I feel the breeze. I feel myself relax. I feel my crabbiness lift.
That’s something I didn’t even think of mentioning – my crabbiness. I have been in a lousy mood a lot this past while – always on edge, ready to turn sour.
No water in my well – nothing to draw on.
People often ask me, when I tell them of days alone at the country, “How do youy manage? Aren’t you lonely?”
Sometimes I do get lonely, long for closeness – but often it feels good to be alone.
Where am I heading? Creativity does not feel boring to me – writing, drawing, rehearsing, going over creative stuff.
But alone, I do get stuck – especially when I am trying to edit something, to decide which way something should go.
Then I need someone else.
But not someone to chitchat with, someone who intrudes with everyday chatter.
I need someone with the capacity to see my stuff, to see it often better than me – or with fresh eyes, anyway.
A little bit of good input, and I’m off, ready to go on on my own.
Philippe, my partner, is good with that – and getting even better – because he used to care that his suggestions were taken – and now he knows I care very much to get his input, but that it may and it may also not work for me – but that however things go, I value his input.
All of a sudden his mother flashes into my mind, chattering and chattering away – saying deep stuff about herself sometimes, going off somewhere else, saying other stuff, usually stuff she’s said before, running off somewhere else – but in general not paying attention to what is going on in me.
Perhaps worst – I don’t have any sense that my being there changes things in her, that she gets much from me.
I have worked very well around her this past week. I have focussed on my creative site, on page after page, on picture after picture, then revising page after page, trying to figure out the way the pages should look.
But I have been at the edge of crabbiness – and that makes me very aware of my lifelong recoil from boredom, from things I find painfully boring.
How does that relate to creativity? My sense is that the boring is the enemy of the creative, that enduring boringness suffocates creativity (mine, anyway).
I have been taught not to be rude – and there are all kinds of times when I find it hard to cut off when I find a contact deadeningly boring – especially as I fear hurting people
A bit strange actually, to fear so much hurting people – to have the sense that they are very delicate.
And I wonder now – are you (whoever you are, reading this) wondering if we could find each other interesting? Or are you thinking of all the times you have been painfully bored? Or did you recoil in dread, sure that you would be found boring if we met?
It’s not just recent, by the way, my experience of much of the everyday as boring. It’s been that way since childhood. I hated parades. Boring. Later there were parties where getting drunk was supposed to be fun. Boring. Putting on nail polish. Boring. I needed more – ever so much more. Things like creativity, thinking, figuring things out. Brain candy. Yeah.
The image that comes to mind is a puppy being on a short leash. No fun.
Then off and running. Now that is fun. Using my mind, stretching it, being creative, imaginative, solving problems. Yeah.
There are many people I enjoy being with, by the way. Around them I feel free.
As always, welcome into my world.
For more of my world, come visit Elsa’s Creativity Blog – blogs on creativity, the creative process, the comings and goings of the creative drive, and more.
And for something different, here’s light fluff which I didn’t find boring to write or bring to life. Talking about eating chocolate – that wouldn’t attract me. But White Chocolate and Hot Fudge Sauce [http://www.elsas-word-story-image-idea-music-emporium.com/%20words-music-sexe-tetes-white-chocolate.html] – words, beat, music with … the Sexe-Tetes, a couple of women friends and myself. That was fun.
However, it did all relate to boringness as well. I had been giving a hand to a songwriter who just couldn’t come up with images for a song. In a couple of hours, loads of images popped into my mind. He kept wanting them later and later in his song – in other words, any images seemed too much, too soon.
I went home – and the lid came off my mind, the images flew all over. In ten minutes I had written White Chcoclate and Hot Fudge Sauce. Down by the beach and the ice cream shack, soft ice cream with a chocolate wrap, mocha flambe, banana split, do you want to come for a skinny dip?
Come click, come savor. White Chocolate and Hot Fudge Sauce delivers flavor. Flavor, another word for aliveness, like creativity.
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